Club Sapphic and My Return to Performing
January 4th, 2010Hi everyone: Yes, I know it’s been a while, and as many of you know, my family suffered a loss right before Christmas. My stepdad’s death from lung cancer came right on the heels of Stephanie Swift’s diagnosis of breast cancer only a few months earlier. Needless to say, I felt completely overwhelmed and depressed as I watched two of the people closest to me struggle with this awful disease. I just didn’t have the wherewithal to write very much. I’m afraid my posts would have been limited to “Life sucks!” I don’t get writer’s block very often, but in the case of the past few months my brain has just been numb, along with many of my emotions. It’s just been hard to care about anything much, and it was a struggle to even get my basic work done, to show up on set, to write the movies. I had never felt so disinterested in things that usually bring me joy.
Now, however, the pendulum has begun to sway back. My stepdad has been laid to rest, and beautiful Stephanie completes her final chemotherapy sessions this month (January.) She looks gorgeous and strong and we have every reason to believe she’ll be cancer-free very soon.
Another thing that’s making me really happy is my return to regular performing (girls only!) Since increasing our product to four films a month (between Sweetheart and Sweet Sinner), I felt that performing was piling my plate just a little too high. So I stopped, and concentrated all my efforts on writing and directing.
But now, with my new Club Sapphic series, I’m going to be able to perform regularly again. I’ll also be sharing more intimate details of my life with you: you can read in bed with me, listen to my random blatherings, brainstorm with me, kind of be my friend as I go through my day and my life. This is ONLY for Club Sapphic members, and will not be on DVD. We’re setting up a special part of the website right now that will be dedicated to me and my girls and I’ll let you know as soon as it goes up. It should be by the end of January, after I return from AVN.
My Club Sapphic series will be shot differently than videos, in that it will be one camera, very intimate, just me and my girl of the month, and our female camera-person. There won’t be any storylines, it will just be us talking to each other and to you and then making love. I want you to tell me what and who you want to see me with. I am so excited and I have a wish list already: Melissa Monet, Darla Crane, Sara Stone, Nyomi Banxxx, Deauxma, Nicole Ray, Wendy Breeze, to name just a few. I hope you’ll enjoy it as much as I’m going to love doing it, because believe me I am VERY excited!!!
And now I have to get ready for AVN! Literally, I’m on my way to the salon to get all highlighted for you so I can properly represent redheaded sluts everywhere! I’m up for Director of the Year, and Sweet Sinner is up for Best New Studio, and we have a few Sweetheart nods in there as well! So wish us luck – any awards we win are thank to you guys. I’d be nothing without you and I love you all so much!
I promise the blogs will be back to their regular scheduling now. Thank you for understanding while I’ve been going through life’s twists and turns.
xoxoxo Nica